1st degree of me

i've been abandoning this blog for such a long time..
then i realised, someone tagged the URL of this blog in her's..
thanks Kim, for marking this already-spider-webbed blog as something still worth to read.

well... this is just the another angle of myself.. i have 360 different angles :-P well, i have to do 360 entries to explain each degree of angle of my self.. ngeh ngeh..
O well...
I've been a bit lost in the past few weeks.. Due to my deteriorating performance in da'wah.. Hmm.. what's wrong? Before I appoint my index finger to someone, let me appoint other 9 fingers to myself.. Yup, I need to search my own soul.. I left it somewhere... :-D

Finally, alhamdulillah, I found it.. And where did I found it? Yeah, of course.. in a place, not a hotel, but only a small and gaudy place where I met my sisters in Islam... No wonder Muadz bin Jabal invited other sahabahs to sit along and refresh their souls, though it was only for a little time.

Let me track on, what has been the factors that contribute the predecament of my iman.

1. Work - been travelling to Ramunia, then to Alam (Melaka) -- not good environment for almost 1 whole week... urgh! And I barely can spend time to recharge myself.

2. Not catching up with amal fardhi -- lack of Al Quran recitation, lack of tahajjud, lack of reading spiritual recharging books... etc... uh, lack of almost everything

3. Doing things to please people -- uhuh, since when did I care about what other would think or feel about me? Patut la rasa cam tak best, now I know.. Why should I care, as long as I am doing the right things (insya-Allah).. People, please advise me when you think that I'm wrong.. Do not discuss about me at my back, and bringing your own conclusion.. Be frank, and do not bring sweet faces and try to cover up things... I'm not going to bash your face if you're saying something right, and advising me on my wrongdoings...

4. Dealing with people who are so complicated.. Then I forgot one thing, Allah asks us to be patient.. Save your patience Kodomo Lion! Utk orang jahil, Allah suruh sabar, dan tinggalkan mereka dengan cara yang baik (Surah Al Insan).. Untuk sesama dhu'at, Allah suruh sabar juga (Al Kahfi:28)... Allah suruh minta tolong dgn sabar dan solat...


O Allah, grant my strength!! La haula wa laa quwwata illa billah

DULU, KINI, SELAMANYA

this is the Book, no doubt in it, a guidance to the godfearing, (2)
who believe without seeing, establish the Prayer and expend of that We have provided them; (3)
who believe in what has been sent down to thee and what has been sent down before thee, and they are sure about the Hereafter. (4)
Those are upon guidance from their Lord, and those are the ones who shall prosper.(5)

Surah Al Baqarah

Kita, Al Quran, Islam dan Tarbiyyah, Dakwah....

Di sini kita pernah bertemu

Mencari warna seindah pelang

Ketika kau menghulurkan tanganmu

Membawaku ke daerah yang baru

Dan hidupku kini ceria

Kini dengarkanlah

Dendangan lagu tanda ingatanku

Kepadamu teman

Agar ikatan ukhuwah kan bersimpul padu

Kenangan bersamamu

Takkanku lupa

Walau badai datang melanda

Walau bercerai jasad dan nyawa

Mengapa kita ditemukan

Dan akhirnya kita dipisahkan Mungkinkah menguji kesetiaan

Kejujuran dan kemanisan iman

Tuhan berikan daku kekuatan

Mungkinkah kita terlupa

Tuhan ada janji-Nya

Bertemu berpisah kita

Ada rahmat dan kasih-Nya Andai ini ujian

Terangilah kamar kesabaran

Pergilah gelita hadirlah cahaya

It is reported on the authority of Anas that the Prophet of Allaah (may peace and blessings be upon him ) said: There are three qualities for which anyone who is characterised by them will relish the sweetness of faith: he to whom Allaah and His Messenger are dearer than all else; he who loves a man for Allaah's sake alone; and he who has as great an abhorrence of returning to unbelief after Allaah has rescued him from it as he has of being cast into Hell.
-Riwayat Sahih Muslim

UNTUKMU

Di sini kita pernah bertemu

On earth will be your dwelling-place and your means of livelihood - for a time. (Al Baqarah:36)

Mencari warna seindah pelangi

Seest thou not that God sends down rain from the sky? With it We then bring out produce of various colours. (Fathir: 27)

Ketika kau menghulurkan tanganmu
Membawaku ke daerah yang baru


Dan hidupku kini ceria
Kini dengarkanlah
Dendangan lagu tanda ingatanku
Kepadamu teman
Agar ikatan ukhuwah kan bersimpul padu
Kenangan bersamamu
Takkanku lupa
Walau badai datang melanda
Walau bercerai jasad dan nyawa
Mengapa kita ditemukan
Dan akhirnya kita dipisahkan
Mungkinkah menguji kesetiaan
Kejujuran dan kemanisan iman
Tuhan berikan daku kekuatan back to
Mungkinkah kita terlupa
Tuhan ada janji-Nya Bertemu berpisah kita
Ada rahmat dan kasih-Nya
Andai ini ujian
Terangilah kamar kesabaran
Pergilah gelita hadirlah cahaya

Hardship makes you stronger....

Alhamdulillah fi kulli haal....

ALlah stated in the Al Quran, there will be no hardship against a person that will be beyond his or her ability to cope with it. This ayah should be a constant reminder to me.

I've been through a lot of hardships lately... that I think, no one experiencing it before.. Well, everyone has been set to face their own challenges, and ALlah knows best although we oftenly think that it should not happen to us... Hardships will strengthen our faith, if we really believe that Allah set everything with good reasons...

I think, the best way to defeat the unpredictable disturbance is through going back to the roots where all started. Allah, He's the one who creates everything, who arranges every event, who controls every activities in the universe...... We know, to Him shall we return.. SO, why not everytime when we face anything, kesenangan atau kesusahan.. we return back to Him... Consult Him... Ask for His help... Indeed He is the Great Helper..

I'm now wearing the same brain that I wore about 20 years ago.... But, how amazing how the same brain develop..Looking at the same thing, but interprating it in different ways thorughout the time... I learnt to read the AL QUran since I was a small kid... Never understood it really until when Allah poured His guidance on me, to understand it and as well to convey it...

O Allah, accept our deeds... And make us the asbab of hidayat... And do please retain the iman in our hearts, and increase the iman through the hardships that we went through..